I know I haven’t written in a while, to be honest it’s just been work keeping me away. Even though my job pays shit I still enjoy it.
This last week has been crazy. I’ve been living homeless since Saturday until I can find a place, I’ve been doing a little couch surfing, sleeping in garages and even in my car. It could be worse, at least it’s warm lol. My town has still not fully recovered from Irma so I’ve been out helping with the neighbor hood clean up which is cool, I’ve been cutting trees and dragging them in to my car to dispose of. Thing is in my village there is a lot of elderly people and single parents with kids so they have been in need of help. Saying that I should probably clean out my car.
My girlfriend has been so cool lately, she’s so positive, happy, sick sense of humour lol, and calls on me everyday to just say hey, tell me about some stupid shit and to say she loves me. She’s a star. I hate it when she puts her self down, she has body image issues (who doesn’t to be fair). I’m in the best shape of my life but still am not happy. The thing is she looks amazing, gorgeous eyes, sexy as hell smile and the best butt I’ve seen in my life 😜 I really wish she could see herself through my eyes.
I’ve decided to start up a new blog too. But this one will only be for my daughter to read. It’s basically going to be me writing weekly or monthly to her and it gives her the chance to reply if she wants. Like our own communication system. It’s going to be awful for her growing up without a father, I know so many people who have and they all tell me they wish they’d have had some kind of contact. When you have no contact with your child that you love more than life itself it’s hard. She’s just over three months old now and I miss her every day. I decided to do this second blog so at least in the future she can read it and know her daddy always cared, always loved her and always wanted to be in her life. I will still send Birthday and christmas cards every year but my fear is that if her mother moves then I will never know and Abigail will never get them. Still will send them though just incase. I need to stop worrying about it so much, it’s been taken out of my control so there’s not much I can do about it but I will always do what I can.
Song: RA – Do You Call My Name